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Here is a selection from one of the first fractal artists I ever came to admire (but by no means the only one over the years since). He uses my favourite program, Ultra Fractal. Such beautiful works, clever choice of colours and amazing formations!

:iconsegami: no longer seems to produce these beautiful works here at dA and I'd love to know where he has gone!

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Here is a small collection from the late titiavanbeugen's amazing fractal art. I will never forget the impact she made on so many of us through her wonderful creativity, her suffering, and through her incredible faith in God and ultimate untimely death.

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An Uncertain Future

Journal Entry: Thu Aug 27, 2015, 6:39 AM

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Trying To Keep Myself Above Plummeting Into Depression


Health Concerns - Heart


My heart problems have worsened over the past few months.  I saw my Cardiologist's registrar in June because the SVT's en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Supraven… had become more frequent and more distressing, causing me on several occasions to have to give up and come home when I was in the middle of playing my flute in public situations, or doing other things that required someone else to take over behind the scenes.  Obviously I had become rather unreliable.  The symptoms include breathlessness and lots of other things, but the pacemaker I have has enabled me not to actually collapse.  She put me on a regime of certain tablets to try and prevent this happening, but unfortunately I was unable to tolerate them.  After phoning her secretary, she got back to me and put me on an alternative regime, which I started the following day.  My GP baulked at the suggested regime in her letter, which he had received by fax a couple of days later, but conceded she must know what she's doing as this was her speciality, and the normally expected heart-block that would happen would be prevented by my pacemaker implant.  I started this new regime immediately and for the first week it seemed to be working well.  Then I started getting constant very fast heart-beats, which although not giving me awful symptoms other than getting very tired, I could detect in a silent room when I could hear my own pulse in my head.  As I was due a pacemaker check, I waited, meanwhile carrying on with the medication hoping it would right itself.  The pace check revealed the problem - atrial flutter - showing it to have gone on for 20 days at that time.

Then I had a terrifying experience in the middle of the night, when I had obviously been dreaming that something was happening, and on waking, I was saying out loud, "I don't know which button I'm supposed to press!  I don't know what to do!"  I had my hand just above the area of my pacemaker and was obviously trying to press something that wasn't there, but the fact was my heart was beating terribly fast and terribly irregularly, and I literally felt as though I was going to die.  It sorted itself out back to the fast but even rhythm shortly after, but I then had the shock reaction of uncontrollably shivering and shaking with teeth chattering, and this lasted for a whole hour.  I was then too frightened to go back to sleep for quite a long time afterwards.

I saw my GP the next day (after being on this medication regime for 35 days).  His reaction was that I should come off it and revert back to normal medication as soon as possible.  Blood tests and an ECG have been done; the former are all normal (thank goodness!!) but the ECG revealed that I now have atrial flutter and atrial fibrillation - the one thing that we were all hoping to avoid!  I see the Cardiologist's Specialist Intervention Fellow on 15th September.  The original plan was to go for an AV ablation (knocking out all electrical impulses inside the heart) and to rely solely on the pacemaker.  However, atrial fibrillation is the one thing these ablations fail to correct! :(

I feel short-changed, rather angry that this was allowed to happen - particularly at this stage - and on the verge of plummeting into depression, as I've really, really had enough of all this!

Because of now being at high risk of heart attack and/or stroke, I've now been put on anti-coagulants.  Anyone on these will know the long list of risks and unwanted side-effects and one wonders why anyone would actually go ahead and take the darn things!  I feel like making a comic reading of those side effects on Youtube - no kidding!!! :lol:

So...  In case I should suddenly disappear from here - or anywhere else for that matter - I have now re-arranged the Admin roles in my own groups so that I'm no longer the founder (at least for the time being), as I just hate to see groups go to the wall because their founder is no longer active.

Left Shoulder Degenerative Changes


This is my second problem!  This started to become excruciatingly painful around two months ago and in the end I was taking oral morphine (only when needed most) to try to cope with the pain levels, particularly when getting up, washed and dressed in the mornings.  For a time I couldn't type much because of the pain if I held my arm up so that my fingers could function on the keyboard.  I haven't been able to play my flute, as that is right on the pain barrier too.

I had an x-ray last week after a cortisone injection failed to help, and yes, this has revealed thinning of the collar bone towards the area where it joins with the top of the scapula, at which point there are signs of degeneration affecting the shoulder joints.  Hence the pain.  Good news is that, although playing the flute is still painful (unless I have my elbow resting on something), there are signs of improvement, both in movement and with less pain (unless I go too far).

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You know, when you are faced with the very real possibility of sudden death, or even of becoming horribly disabled through having a stroke, you think even harder about all sorts of things that previously held a healthy place in your mind:

:bulletgreen:  What's the purpose of my life?
:bulletgreen:  Where will I end up after death?
:bulletgreen:  Did I ever fulfil my best potential?
:bulletgreen:  What am I doing in places such as dA?
:bulletgreen:  Do I want to renew my subscription?
:bulletgreen:  If I don't do so, will I still be able to feature other people's work as I have enjoyed doing so far?
:bulletgreen:  Do I want to continue creating art even?

These are just some of my thoughts.

Well, I do sometimes pray for people on here when they are going through difficult times.  They probably aren't aware of this and it doesn't matter.  It's just something I do when I feel led to do it.  Talking of this, do please remember my dear friend Rick Fractalholic who has just had some terribly bad news and I feel so much for him.  If you have faith in God, please pray for him.  Please also pray for me!

It was while I was praying for someone here, that these words dropped into my mind in a powerful way, "You reach your own full potential every time you enable someone else to realise theirs."  I've now added this statement (slightly precied because of the number of characters needed) under my signature.  It speaks to me of not just having one chance of reaching your potential, but many!  Looking back over my life, I can see how this has indeed happened, because I've been privy to knowing the results in some cases which have sometimes been stunning!

I have thoroughly enjoyed featuring the works of other artists here too.  I've no idea what impact this has on individual lives as at the end of the day I'm not able to give out DD's!  But my aim is to bring encouragement wherever I can and to show off beautiful works created in fractal programs.  This has also fitted in well with my own creative thoughts that flow out of looking at certain works.  It's a chance for me to express those thoughts during some of the features.  Sometimes I'm short of the sort of time required for this and the wording is then quite brief.  Also, not all works of art invoke such thought processes.

I believe the purpose of my life is to pass on the love of God whenever I can, and to praise Him in and through my own creativity - although it's not always easy to carry out what I really want to do here on dA, because I'm aware that my own beliefs are not necessarily upheld by other people.  I've never wanted to preach or evangelise (I hate that word!!), but have always believed in being open and honest, and if someone else is able to embrace what I offer, that gives me great joy.

There are two pictures in my gallery that I love very much, and which are both an expression of something I sense beyond this realm.  I don't usually feature anything of my own, but because of the things I've shared in this journal, I'm going to break that rule.

Glimpses of heavenly places by AnnaKirsten
Glimpses of heavenly places

Vibrant colours, lights, strange shapes, things not yet seen or experienced;  a sense of serenity and unexplored beauty in another world;  the Light of God Himself; heavenly beings, music, singing, rejoicing, and a place "over there" where there are no more tears, no more mourning or sorrow...  And so much more...


Flowing From The Forever by AnnaKirsten
Flowing From the Forever


Heaven on earth - when we open our hearts to the heavenly realm and reach out to our Heavenly Father in prayer, there is a two-way relationship between our Creator and us, and between heaven and the piece of earth where we currently are. 
Jesus is my Saviour and Lord.  "Your will be done on earth as it is in Heaven!" is my cry!  And one day, it will be so, for it is prophesied!!!  I've read the Book and have some inkling of its ending ;)


These are the things that matter to me.  Tomorrow I will see what happens...


:hug:zzz to my dear friends here on dA.  Take heart and have Faith.  Don't believe everything you have been taught!!!


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My gallery and all the images contained therein are Copyright © Anna Kirsten. All rights reserved. None of the materials contained in my deviantART gallery may be reproduced, copied, edited, published, transmitted, borrowed, duplicated, printed, downloaded, or uploaded in any way without my express written permission.

My images do not belong to the public domain.




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AnnaKirsten
Anna
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United Kingdom
Please don't give me any llama badges, I'm really not interested in them, and as for cake badges, well no, I'm trying to lose weight thank you, and those ones are rather tasteless in any case! :lol:
Also, NO TAGGING please!


I am an avid cat lover - oh yeahhh!!
Molly and Murry Rule!


That Look by AnnaKirsten My little man and his favourite toy by AnnaKirsten

Go On Then, Touch Me! by AnnaKirsten


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Anna Kirsten are my two middle names, which I chose a long time ago to use as a nom de plume under which any writings or artwork done by me would go.

I spend quite a fair bit of my time here on dA, and enjoy promoting other people's art whenever I can. My two main areas of interest in art are Fractal Art and photography, including a keen interest in macro/close-up photography.

Unfortunately years of chronic illness reduced my ability to carry out anything much in the way of physical activity, and so I turned back to art several years ago, this time on the computer as it's clean and doesn't clutter the place up!

My speciality, developed over several years, is that of creating Fractal Fantasy Scenes in Ultra Fractal. These are intricate and challenging to do, and keep me focussed whilst at the same time enabling me to express something of the spiritual side of myself.

I am a Bible believing Christian, but I have to admit to having a more open mind than many of my brethren on certain issues. For instance, I believe God is bigger than even our enlightened understanding, and that whilst choices have to be made where we are presented with them, if that opportunity has not been there for some, or people have not met the "right Jesus" in life, yet their heart is sincere and true, then they are not necessarily going to be condemned to an eternity of punishment. This would seem to drastically contradict the loving nature of God, who sent His Son to die on the Cross in order to save the whole world - not just some of it! (1 John 2:2 and other Scriptures bear this out.) Talk to me if you would like to know more about my Faith. I'm friendly, I don't believe in pushing my beliefs onto other people who aren't interested, but I am always happy to have amiable discussions with people.

If you're interested, you can see some of my testimonies on this page. Just scroll on down.

I also have a Blog HERE which focuses on the more Spiritual side of my life and who I am.

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PHOTOGRAPHY

I thoroughly enjoy macro and close up photography of nature, flowers, bugs, droplets after the rain, and also butterflies in the summer. I have also enjoyed shooting scenery, but my efforts are very limited by terrible lack of energy and I cannot walk far at all, so I cannot access the best points from which to take good shots.

For those interested, the photography equipment I have in use is as follows:

* Sony Alpha A550 camera + Sony Alpha 18-250mm lens and Tamron f2 60mm macro lens + Sigma 105mm macro lens.
* Canon Powershot G11 + Raynox DCR 250mm macro conversion lens + several other closeup lenses for closeup and macro work.

MUSIC

My other passion is music. I play keyboards and flute, currently harmonising with my flute in a prophetic worship group. Back in and around 2000 I produced 5 CD's of instrumental music for meditation, composed and played by me and recorded in a studio my husband built for me in our home. Some of the tracks are available to listen to HERE


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My gallery and all the images contained therein are Copyright © AnnaKirsten. All rights reserved. None of the materials contained in my deviantART gallery may be reproduced, copied, edited, published, transmitted, borrowed, duplicated, printed, downloaded, or uploaded in any way without my express written permission. This includes downloading for desktop wallpaper.

My images do not belong to the public domain.



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Current Age: Old enough to realise I don't know everything,
Current Residence: Dorset, UK.,
Print preference: Any size.,
Favourite genre of music: Classical, ambient, ethereal, meditative & worship music,
Favourite style of art: Atmospheric and mystical, but not dark; Fractals.,
Operating System:Windows 8.1 awaiting 10,
Personal Quote: This too shall pass!
Interests

CHRISTMAS 2010

Hope, Love, Peace




For personal reasons (albeit I'm not a JW) I have always struggled with the whole Christmas thing, and the older I've got, the less well I've felt, the more difficult it has become. There were often very unhappy memories attached to this time of year, yet there were also some very sweet memories, but in all, the various emotions stirred up within me have served to make me want to simply ignore Christmas altogether. The sad memories will never die, and I cannot ever again bring back the good ones, or replace them.

Added to this, it isn't something I even believe in celebrating! To me it has little relevance as a Christian, as I don't worship a baby and I get totally fed up with all the hyped up expectations surrounding this event, which are very far removed from anything of the original scenario (a particularly terrifying time for the original characters involved). It isn't even on the correct date! It's associated mainly with making as much money from those who will spend equally as much money in a space of time spanning from September (or even earlier) right through 'till the Boxing Day Sales start. Tinsel, Christmas lights, Christmas trees, and canned carols all accompany this activity in a sickening way, and that familiar pressure begins to establish itself deep down, no matter how much we try to ignore it.

I'm not a kill-joy though! Children in particular really love this time of year - but they are told the lie from the outset that Father Christmas will visit! When the truth finally hits home, not only are we disappointed, but also disillusioned by the brutality that we cannot believe everything we are told by adults. A whole lot of the "magic of Christmas" bolted out the door the day I understood, I can tell you! No Father Christmas, No flying rain deer, and even worse, No faeries!!!

This year the struggle to come to terms with the inevitable was as strong as ever. Then one night during the week preceding Christmas I had a dream that put a whole different slant on it all - at least for me personally.

I was in a large store with lots of other people milling around; it was a bit dark as no lights were on and no trees were lit up; people were moaning about the economy and talking about going bankrupt; people were miserable all around me, and I couldn't find anything I wanted to buy either.

Suddenly a voice broke forth in song. The tune was very familiar to me and I knew it to be a well known hymn, but was unable to discern the words. I looked up, to see a coloured man behind one of the counters singing soulfully with the most beautiful voice I think I'd ever heard. Everyone in the room had stopped what they were doing and tears started to brim out of people's eyes.

As the song came to a close I felt a strong urge to go over and to thank the young man for what he had just done. When I got close to him, I saw that he was disabled and sitting in an electric wheelchair. I was totally surprised at what I saw, but all the more blessed to think that he of all people had such a heart full of thanksgiving that he just wanted to fill the room with his song.

I sang the tune to my husband after I woke up and he recognised some words that went with it, so I Googled them and there it was! The whole song with the lyrics and the truth of what really mattered hit home in an instant!

The song was "There is a Redeemer" written and composed by Keith Green.

Here is a link to Keith singing it before he was killed in a plane crash in 1982: www.youtube.com/watch?v=lQSuTP…

And here is a link to Keith Green's life story: www.youtube.com/watch?v=fXOhSS…

For me the message is this: That little baby born over 2000 years ago in treacherous conditions with a reigning king who sought to kill him and who's mother had been accused of adultery, and who's earthly guardian father had to grapple hard to accept a baby that was not his own, that baby became my Redeemer when He reached only the age of 33!

I hope this message will mean something to some of you too, if you read this...

VISION IN THE NIGHT

Sometime in 1982

REVELATION




It was pitch dark and I was lying comfortably in my bed. It had been a hard day, working with mentally handicapped children and young adults, who's behaviour sometimes caused me a lot of anxiety.

Suddenly the atmosphere became overwhelmingly bright and I saw Jesus, not only standing there in front of me, but also behind me – all around me at the same time! I couldn’t see his facial features because of the brightness, but I felt as though I’d been transported right from my bed into His Presence.

In the few moments I was with Him, I was acutely aware of His love and acceptance of me despite my prevailing weaknesses. No words were spoken, but knowledge was imparted to me that I will never forget. I suddenly understood without any doubt whatsoever that so long as I stayed close in my walk with Him, there would be nothing to fear because He is all powerful, all-loving, and in control (despite how it may seem at the time). His power is in fact outstanding in its totality – something that's terribly difficult for us to grasp!

These are things I came to know through that Vision...


* This did not mean I would never experience pain, hardship, hurt from others, physical sickness and anything else that comes my way as a mere mortal, but it did mean that ultimately, I need not fear these things in a morbid way, because there is another side to all this that we cannot fully comprehend in our mortal state.
* The Scriptural Truth in 1 John 4:18, “There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.” suddenly became very clear to me – the first part of it had often been quoted ad-hock to me by well-meaning Christians, yet had meant little… until now.
* As a naturally fearful person, it was quite a shocking revelation that in fact, my fear existed because I had always been judged guilty by people such as my father, before I could ever even begin to prove my innocence. I was therefore always expecting unpleasant consequences for anything I did, whether good or bad in my own understanding!
* God does not see us in that light. He does not in fact even see our sinfulness, because Jesus Christ paid the price of sin (the wages of sin being death) on our behalf, and in the process his Blood, taking the place of every sacrificial lamb before Him – the Perfect Blood – was sprinkled over all our records of wrong-doings, blotting them out completely! (Did you know that the blood passed on to the child is determined by that of the child’s father? How amazing then to realise, that this means that Jesus’ own Blood was that of His Heavenly Father – it wasn’t even human blood!)
* Not only did I know beyond a doubt of God’s magnificent power and love, but I also felt total security within them, because in the light of eternity, the difficulties and pain we suffer during this life are but a tiny speck in the overall picture, and are “as nothing” when this life is over. I just knew in that short space of time, that I need never fear anything God might ask me to do, no matter how difficult or painful it might be at the time.
* I also became aware that this perfect love was not just for me, but for all humankind. However, whilst those who are incapable of decision-making are undoubtedly covered as a child would be, it's only those who make the move to accept it for themselves who will ultimately reap the benefits of it.

THE BECKONING

Sometime in 1956

Rays of Hope




It was one of those mysterious mornings.

I awoke very early before the sun had risen, and was drawn to look out of my bedroom window, where I beheld a scene quite unexpected!

I gazed at the tops and the bottoms of trees, but there was such a strong mist right across the middle of them that I couldn’t even discern that the trees were in tact, although logic told me they had to be!

Before I knew it, I was hastily getting dressed in warm clothes, and having sneaked out of a side entrance of our house I crept across the gravelled driveway to the outhouses where I’d find my bicycle.

Next thing, I was cycling away from home, leaving behind the comfort and warmth of my bed for an adventure that would change my life.

There was a long descent from our house as I cycled freely downward into the increasingly cold and dank greyness of the thickened mist. Then as I pushed hard on the pedals for the first ascent, I came up into pinkness and the mist thinned out as I approached the summit of the hill.

I knew I needed to go a lot further on than this, and so the process was repeated several more times until I was nearly two miles away from home. Here, in what I knew to be an open clearing with no obstacles in the way, I got off my bike, leant it up against the hedge, and set myself to watch the sun rising above the blanket of mist – the pinkness of it still enveloping me.

The sun had just begun to show its glory when suddenly, I saw Him! I knew Who it was straight away – not that I had received any teaching or instruction, but simply that I had a knowledge of this Mighty Being.

He was up there, just to the left of the sun (or from the sun’s point of view, to its right). As I gazed, I felt a surge of excitement and an inner witness that this was a supernatural experience I was having.

Who, me?

Who was I, a mere 11 year old child, oh so naughty and rebellious, to see Him?

I looked away, partly in shame, but partly so that if He were still there when I looked back again, I’d know I wasn’t just seeing things. He was still there, holding His right hand up, beckoning to me. I knew He was saying He had His hand on my life, and that He was beckoning me to follow His call.

I kept looking away – praying, praising, crying, singing, all at the same time as each time I looked back up, He was still there.

Then He began to merge with the sun. One minute, gloriously part of the sun, the next, separate again, then back and forth until my eyes began to hurt because of the increasing intensity of the light.

It was years later that I realised the significance of this; Jesus said “I and the Father are One. He is in me, and I am in Him.” What this experience had revealed to me symbolically was that the sun represented God the Father, and Jesus, the Son, was part of Him – they were one and the same. I also learned years later that the excitement, the knowing in my heart that this was God revealing Himself to me in a special way, was the work of the Holy Spirit.

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deTate Featured By Owner 1 day ago
Thanky :)
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JACAC Featured By Owner 1 day ago
t h a n k . y o u . k i n d l y . d e a r . f r i e n d :hug:
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21citrouilles Featured By Owner 2 days ago
Thanks dear Anna for the :+fav:'s :love:
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Lupsiberg Featured By Owner 3 days ago   General Artist
Thank you very much for the :+fav: :iconflowerheartplz: and sorry for the late reply! :hug:
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marijeberting Featured By Owner 3 days ago
Thanks Anna for the favs Blowkiss valentine fella (Love) 
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Sillybilly60 Featured By Owner 3 days ago   Digital Artist
Thank you kindly for the fav! Thank You Flower Sign by Mirz123
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Gerda1946 Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the fave :D (Big Grin) Sun
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JACAC Featured By Owner 5 days ago
t h a n k . y o u . d e a r . Anna . :hug:
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Lashington Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for the fave Anna, very kind of you. Your gallery was a real pleasure to look through it's a pity they don't have a "fave all" button to press. 
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